Sigh and double sigh..

I'm questioning myself, did it happen the last time we were there as well?

Mummy's upset that we have to carry home so many things. Oh, I kind of remember le, cos last time i left early for work, so I dunno if she has many things to bring home!

Seriously dun remember.. was she upset the last time too that aunts and uncles brought stuff to occ?

i'm so... not happy. :'( I rmbr the last visit to occ was like heavenly. I had time with my book, had time to swim and tan etc. it did rain too. but not so bad. I dunno. I guess the previous visit was more family. This time was more mummy.

What about me? Maybe I really NEED to just travel out ALONE. Can you imagine, leng? THe last time u suggested something so ______ to me i was totally against your idea. Unfortunately, maybe with a little of leng influence, this idea i was abhorred about I'm actually accepting and making it mine. GOsh.

Naples?
Or Ubud?

All. By. My. Self.

Riding Again!!!

After another few months of waiting.. Sabine finally slot me into another term lesson. Unfortunately, this is the last time i can take lessons as guest, in future will have to pay membership and all.. quite alot of money involved.. i'm not quite prepared to fork out... YET...

And today's lesson.. was so great! So enjoyable and familiar, as i walked in, towards the familiar board and realise i'm scheduled to ride We Are On again! So glad, so thankful, to have someone - somehorse familiar...

I was quite unsure, actually chose a helmet a tad too big... but stuck with it.. the instructor gave us full control lorz, i have actually NEVER used the mounting block, always led the horse to the arena then mounted. today had to mount ALONE, seriously, my first time.

But no difficulty at all, i was nervous, kept talking to him, We Are On (W), but its alright, found his stable, released the crown and cheek piece with some difficulty, led it out of stable.

trainer was rather unfriendly though.. didn't smile, quite strict, really let us on our own.. i didn't know where to led him to, very long never sit so high, abit unsound without seat belt.. lol..

so we were asked to trot after a round of walking and u know, as usual, its impossible to get W trotting! He's sooo old, and sooo tired, and i'm also so tired.. i'm sure he enjoys the walk while i enjoy the ride. But since i paid for lesson, i better learn well, so i kicked and kicked so hard that i nearly teared... but still he didn't budge.. still walking on.. lol..

okay we struggled for fifteen minutes trying to get the horses into trot, and well u know, i love it! haha.. it was fun.. when i finally remember how to trot properly.. it was time to end e lesson.. awww...

and guess what? walking the horse back, i actually feel happy enough to WANT to keep riding... to be willing to fork out that sum of membership... okayokay.. dun think too far.. finish the lessons first.. haha... :P

Thank God..

Thank you, Thank God Thank God..

You won't believe how grateful I am,
To find someone who understands.

So full of appreciation for this gift,
You have taken pains to guide me towards.

Someone I thought quite impossible to exist,
Someone so dear and ever so giving.

I'm so thankful I'm at a loss for words,
To put my joy and gratification.

As actions speak louder than words,
God, I will appreciate this gift more than ever.

I will take care of the gift and treasure it well.
I will be a good lady for this gift.

Thank you, Thank God.