And i went to the CDAC volunteer day.. Saw Yee Lee get her 15 year.. i wonder if i will even get a 5 year.. heard that we must serve continuously.. but i always so on and off.. come to think of it.. i was there since 19... going to 10 years le.. lol..
but no, that's not my thoughts. I want to share, in fact, what's troubling me most, is maybe, a personal insecurity. I value team effort, team work, coordination and cooperation. However, looking at the team award groups, i can feel how teams work. Why M&S doesn't work? Beacuse there is no homogeneity in the individuals. The individuals do not share values, do not share similar mindsets nor beliefs. That way, it is hard to work. That way, C2I works.
But i digress again. My major concern, personal concern is, after being in the upper echlons for so many years. I'm always afraid to try to work with the lower echlons. Not that i'm being ostracising, but more that I do not know what makes them tick. I see how TPY is trying to sieve out the creme de la creme. He only wants the best. He thinks everyone can be the best. I don't know how the lower echlons can tune to TPY. Nobody knows. TPY expects 100% engagement. 100% participation. 100% commitment. but this is life. this is not heaven. you don't filter. you cannot choose. We are HUMANS.
So I'm hoping, I want to learn, to work with the lower echlons. To work with the old uncle at SM who thinks only of getting his 7k every month by sitting by his desk and looking busy. To work with the registry auntie who is so passionate yet doesn't seem to think about improving her quality and efficiency. I hope to understand them, to see how they can contribute to the organisation in their small little ways despite them being HUMAN.
