Touching...

As it can be...
The girl who sees only me..

Apart so much as we may be...
Closest of all but we seem..

Girls of strength we both are...
Yet age has toned both of us...

Her silent care touches me so deep...
Protecting me from hurt within...

Hurt that I've been thru and thru...
My days alternate pink and blue...

Without risks I shall not live...
For I must follow what I believe...

Curiousity buried deep in me...
Yet love burns so strongly...

Afraid of having something new...
Withold intensly while in review...

Backlogs I proceed to clear...
Before the fresh beginning's here...

I thank god for my optimism...
For failure has not killed my love...

Please give me strength and direction...
To be there in the right fashion...

And give her strength to pull thru...
The difficult times like a bull...

The signs are clear..

Back to orchestra I go...

Home...

feels so strange... like so unfamiliar now... i've been away for four weeks out of the last five...

taking the mrt feels like sightseeing now..

i still love my home... its good to come back to mummy's love and pampering... granny's praises and singing... and not so yummy but comforting home cooked food..

Life as we know it..

Recommended by a colleague (the type who sends weird sms when they're drunk..)

Also recommended by leng's colleague... have been begging yaya to watch with me to no avail.. finally watched it yday.. and very glad to have watched it with leng!

I don't think others will have the same comment of the film as leng and i.. on hind sight.. those attached may probably better appreciate it (no wonder my colleague recommended it).. but to leng and i... its more like superficial.. like fairytale..

I was definitely hoping for greater substance (like inception - surprise!).. but it was so predictable... so mundane.. like ya, okay, papa mama die.. okay, little girl grows up.. like okay, they lived with sophie, go through moments with her.. and duH! of course they grow close and fall in love eventually.. -.- how stupid.

what's so 'life as we know it' huh? I dun know my life this way, neither does leng.

Our lives are filled with activities, friends, good friends, friends who stand by one another, friends who stood us occasionally. Baby!? So crappy, 9 kids that even the father does not recognise name?! please, this is 2010.

But ya, its good, a good laugh, meaningless laugh, but good laugh. Not our type huh - leng? I love Heigl, she acts so damn welL! cry - check! friends die tears - check! excited at baby's first steps - check! cannot ride motorbike - check! the only fake thing is.. heigl carrying the heavy cake out of kitchen, don't look heavy enough - needs work!

In any case, that's not life as we know it. NEXT PLEASE!

I have a friend who smses after he's drunk:

c@0123hrs - Are you ok?
reply -> I'm home. Puking. what exactly did i drink sia. You all take care.
c@0130hrs - Where r u?
c@0137hrs - Some back! Where r u? In ur home?
c@0140hrs - Ms x where r u?
c@0147hrs - Did u take ur wallet?
c@0150hrs - Halo, did u take ur thing?
c@0156hrs - U reached home or at ur ur house ouside?
no reply as x fell asleep after replying.

just find it hilarious.. so sharing here.. hee hee...

Yoda

Made Mistakes, I have
Past Pain, I am
Forever Fulfilling, My life is.

Thought Thoroughly, I have
Missing You, I am
Peacefully Painful, My life is.

-- Written in Resort Hotel, 5 Oct 10

Flaming Butterfly

Recently watched flaming butterfly... Although yaya says its such an old show, but its nice ma... and Although I didn't watch the full of it (cos I cant find the complete watchable series online) I managed to grasp quite the essence of it...

Do you think if the man survived, they can still live sweetly together?

With so much history, so many scars, such great tragedies.. the person whom they see everyday just reminds them of those.. they would just lose confidence and not be able to climb up ever again... So, how can it be sweet lei?

Seven Colours In The Rainbow

Seven Colours In The Rainbow

Were there seven colours in the rainbow?
Is there seven worlds to which we can row?

Can I chase after the pot of gold?
Or let happiness slowly grow?

I remember the dumpling sent to me,
A small act engraved in memory.
Even though I didn't like dumpling,
The heart was filled with grateful feeling.

I appreciated my past that was so colourful,
But now embrace a future all alone too.
The hurt and pain back in the past,
Gone yet remain memories that last.

Can a single boat overcome five seas?
Is any man able to be free?

Can I row away from all my troubles?
Or let them sink into deeper waters?

-- Princess Sophia, 4 Sep 2010

Too long never blog..

I opened my own blog and wondered, "my layout liddat de meh?!?!?!" :O "When did I change to this layout???" "why did I choose this layout???" O.M.G.

Work is... @#$%^&*(

That's how I described to Jared one fine day this week.

Bad, Tired, Totally drained. Yesh, coping well. But SO TIRING!!!!!!!!!!

Why Am I So Busy?!?!? I dun understand.

I didn't used to be busy. I used to be so damn free.

Busy is good. But need a better balance. Need just a LEEEETLE more rest.

Thanks dude! (the dude up there, thank you horz...)

5Cs

In Barcelona,
In a very cheap hotel,
I was asked: do you go for 5Cs?

My answer is YES.

Caring
Concern
Cute
Creative
Calm

Lost

I have no idea why.

Maybe too many pple around me are getting dejected. Maybe too many pple in the ofx are leaving. Maybe cos I had to shift down.

I suddenly feel very dejected today. I felt like I've lost my life. I lost the choir life i used to lead, i lost the orchestra life i used to own, i lost the ensemble gatherings i never missed.

playing this piece of choral piece NUS Choir sang combined with TP choir, churns up greater emotions that I can imagine.

I knew i gave that life up and started this new one. I've accepted it with grace and embrace. But maybe, its okay to shed some tears of reminisence once in a while.

a new experience awaits in June...

One never knows how attached one has gotten until the day a detachment is prompted.

I've been so comfortable skipping to work, greeting the pple around me, getting used to them, gng for lunches and t-brks tgt... So used to this environment on lvl22nd... that I'm so scared and sad to have to move!

Come June, I will have to welcome this whole new world of Lvl6.. make new friends and get used to a new environment all over again... C'mon! let's look forward to it tgt!

Eiffel Tower

You know horz... Eiffel is just a piece of scrap metal. You queue damn long to squeeze into the lift up to wait amongst crowds to give space for a scenic spot to eventually have to give up that spot to other waiting pple. Then squeeze and wait for another squeezy lift up of that piece of metal.

Not. ROMANTIC. at. all. lorz.

At least Empire State had this priority queue system, Eiffel Tower totally dun have lorz. Maybe should've gone at night. That dunno who proposed to the actress in Eiffel Tower somemore lorz. Very romantic mehz? Haha.. I think the peak will suffice. :P


-this is a continuation of my Paris remininscences-

Very touched...

This morning my colleague come in to comment of my xing shi zou rou status. Den another came in to attempt to explain to me in simple english.

How touching that they noticed me and cared about me.

Even more touching that Ya Ya mummy forced century egg chicken porridge on me. Yes mummy, I dislike century egg, but as sick pple are nvr hungry, food taste the same to them anw. Still, chicken was yummy.


Waited 1/2 hour at the private clinic today. 1/2 hour! Totally irritated. So many pple sick meh?

Sigh.. no MC for tmr... :( but, I want to go work la :P Haha, now i got excuse to tell everyone why i sick still go work, cos doctor dun gimme MC. Yippie!


P.S. Where got doctor give panadol for muscle ache de? I'm so adamant about eating it lorz.. -.-

P.P.S. need to go watson's get yomoko tmr.

First time drenched in '<'7 degrees

Yes.. and so we walked along River Seine from Eiffel Tower to NotreDame, to find it closed for the day.. (cos i walking so slowly) and then.. it started pouring... it was like 7 degrees.. we were hoping that it will stop... but but.. it didn't.. and got heavier.. and we were all drenched and shivering.. but i was sitting all crunched up on the bench while my two companions try to shelter me from e rain...

we eventually ran a far distance to the metro and took it straight back to our hotel for a nice warm bath.. :)

T'was fuN!

Seeing the world..

Through my eyes...

I've got this realization, my mother's supportive of my travels as she gets to see the world thru my eyes.. and the world she sees thru my eyes seems to be so much more beautiful than that seen thru her own...

Paris reminscences

When I touched down, I didn't feel anything.

I think I travel too much. But I like travelling. Although I travel so much that taking the plane is just like another bus ride.

This Paris trip, there were many firsts again. But most importantly, there were many push and realizations and awakenings to my life. I didn't know I was dormant for the past year! I thought I had moved on, I thought I was living such a great life. But now I see, I need to keep what's great and put in those missing stuff.

Gotta go yoga, update u again!

Haji Lane

Did you know, there's this BLu Jazz Bar @ Haji Lane with fantastic dishes and very loud music?

Do you know of "Coffee around the world" that serves such yummylicious sweet coffee (and very sucky coffee with rum)?

Did you know.. that around Haji Ln area, it liven's up at night? even greater than Orchard and Geylang and Clarke Quay combined?!

I'm so amazed.. and the scents of shisha's still floating in my perception...

A KTV out of this world...

Its just another KTV session, with a new group of friends..

Its just another Party World, in a different location...

But it was so special despite its familarity.
(So unlike Spain that was so strange but familiar too!)

It was very different feeling singing with them. Not to mention it was a male dominant KTV gang. Can you believe it? The males were hogging the mic and show-casing their voice. Gosh, I've never heard so many males sang so well in my life - EVER. It was like a concert, I didn't feel like singing. I just wanted to listen in, enjoy.

Its not like i'd be demoralised if i sang. I'm not THAT terrible. Its just, so much more preferable to let them drown me in their lovely vocals. I did sing la. YZ kept insisting i sing. Haha.. and M kept putting songs in between mine so I dun get drained out. -.- I've never felt so taken care off in a KTV ever. I'm an adult lei, not little girl.

Jonal Chong Hair Studio

And so.. following Her World's promotional advertisement, I made this booking with Jonal Chong for my mother and I for today.

The hair cut was okay for both my mother and I. But the experience was not good at all. First we had to wait despite our booking. Then we realised that the same guy who was busying with another customer's dye had to attend to both me and my mother. They didn't even ask if who wanted to go first. just went ahead to cut my mum's first. So I sat there waiting, den when he cut my hair, my mother sat there waiting. (There were times we were BOTH waiting cos he had to tend to the other lady who was dying hair.)

Worse was, he didn't even seek my mum's approval on his haircut. My mother had to prompt him to tidy up a few loose ends after he ordered a shampoo guy to remove her shoulder towel. That was when I had the time to check my fringe to realise there were a few loose ends. When told, he even insisted they belong to the back! But I know my fringe better. URGH!

And and, he allowed me to check my back, for me to realise a few stray clumps again, so he trimmed but didn't let me verify thereafter! And when making payment, my mother discovered some stray clumps at my back (cos he didn't let me verify remember?) and he had this long discussion with my mum insisting the stray clump was due to the hair being at e wrong place! Well, if you knew my obstinate mum, she won and he was coerced to trim it nicely. But i realised another stray strand of hair on my fringe that I JUST cut it off with my elephant scissors.

Haha.

And I was forced to pay cash for I dunno what reason. (guy said they dun accept VISA!?) I couldn't be bothered to find out le. He even suggested I sign package! What crap! I won't even THINK TWICE about NOT gng back. And when I enquired, only to realise that some hairdresser called in sick today. That's why they're so short-handed. So I suggested next time they could let the customer know, so the customer may decide if she wanted to return another day and dun have to suffer such negligent treatment! He tried giving excuses for his stupid decision. URGH! Totally not sweet.

What a tiring haircut. :(

P.S. After we got home, my mother felt some raw skin at e back of her neck. That's when I saw the cut caused by the razor when he was trimming her back. Please dun go there la. I totally discourage you from even TRYING. My neighbourhood got one simple salon much much better.

Watson's Card

Got myself a Watson's Card today.

Very weird righT? After all the hype has died down, den i get my watson's card. I also very perplexed. Why didn't i get it last year? but i dun feel regret for not getting last yr either. Very weird.

Haha, sorry for the outburst on e previous post. Re-reading it really find it quite offensive. But only the hotmail guys will be offended i hope. :P

And I'm actually online JUST to register the card. -.- haha. now figuring how the scheme actually and looking at the wide range of skin care on promotion... *slurp* -liu kou shui- haha...

I HATE HOTMAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I"M SOOOOO ANGRY UPSET AND IRRITATED AND IRKED AND ALL FURIOUS WITH HOTMAIL!!!!!!!!!!

KAAOZ!!! PLUS ALOT OF VULGAR LANGUAGE!!!!!!!!!! !@#$%^&*@#$%^$%^#$%$%^#$%@#@#!@#$%^&

I typed this one entire list of instructions on how to install database for a friend... AND... STUPID HOTMAIL DELETED IT AWAY!!!!!!!!!

What's the point of saving drafts if you immediately delete the draft after I accidentally NAVIGATE AWAY!>?!?!??!?!?

STUPID HOTMAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!

VERY ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A road less travelled...

My Sec Sch teacher once preached, "why following the majority? why not embark on the road less travelled?"

Today, I had the opportunity to take a short walk home on a route very different from my usual. This route, though I haven't taken in a decade, seems so familiar and brought so much nostalgia back. It was the route I walked this once when rushing to school with a mate. But the most precious memory was two decades back, when I travelled that route everyday, to my kindergarten 1 and 2 - PAP. It held even greater memory, when I was still a toddler and my aunt just got married. My aunt and uncle will walk me over on weekends, just to buy a simple bottle of Coke. It was such a sweet outing then, as being so young, every outing was filled with fun.

So, I embarked on this road less travelled, a very quiet walk back home today. Reflecting on my past three decades, thinking back about my memories on that route. It was so emotionally boggling, like filling my quarter-filled emotions flask with water and over-flowing.

Yes, I am in pain today. But I do not know why. My pain started way before this road less travelled home.

I need time. I need space. To sort out this pain.

In Pain

Why does the heart hurt so much?
Could it be the fear to part?

What is it reminded of?
Could it be the love lost?

Love isn't even in the equation anymore!
Maybe absence is the most painful of all.

What is Your Celebrity Style?

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Department Outing

I figured I should post something else besides how excited I am about work.

Tmr is my training day, so not gng to work. :D I'm looking forward to it cos its a 'Lean Thinking' Course. Supposed to be interactive (at least i read from the course description). But yes! I wish I could work, cos still got so many things haven't sort out and Sunday I have to brave the crowds MYSELF! Grrr.. wished at least B or A or J can go! I dun even know L! -.-

Anw, last Fri was our dept outing. Oh, it was so fun! You know, I so totally dislike bowling etc etc. But we went bowling. Even as we were asked to go get the bowling shoe at the shoe counter, I was asking "CAn I not play?". But it turned out great! Was quite jealous org. of another team who has B scoring XXXX for them. Think he got ~165 points! But was so much happier to know that A was also pro. pro = spin ball, curve or some pple call hook i think. And A did eventually hit ~165 too! haha..

Critically, I think it was the team spirit that made my day. Everybody was watching out for one another. Like after I throw my ball, I'd turn and walk back to see all four of them eyes fixed on my rolling ball to see how many pins i hit! They seem even more concerned about my score than I! Haha, and not to mention the encouraging shouts of 'Spare! Spare!' from B, which eventually did help me to spare!

Oh, and we did some silly stuff. Cos i had this one pin left on the side, B was asking me to 'push the ball' like the 5-yr-old kids' way. And I did, to have the ball go all the way to the drain. -.- so i challenged him. The second time i couldn't strike due to one last pin standing, B went to 'push e ball' too! haha. cos B insisted the way i push is wrong, like i have to apply even pressure from both arms. Zzz z.z... And ya, guess what? pushing the ball causes it to go longkang. ('x')

Yepz, that pretty much summarizes my very exciting dept outing. YooHoo! =D

Again...

I. Cant. Wait. To. Get. Back. To. Work. :D

Happy Chinese New Year!

Well, it seems the spirit of prosperity and good fortune Chinese New Year brings way outweighs the sweetness and peace of Valentines that I almost did not feel any Valentiny spirit.

After slacking so many boring days... I'm soooo glad I can finally get back to work! ahahah... YES! Can't wait for tmr! :D

"Anniversary"

Today marks the first year anniversary of the murder of what used to be a huge portion of my heart. (Erz, so has my heart grown bigger? - haha, maybe so)

I think its enough. I have to stop mourning. Stop taking slow and fearful steps forward, every inch hoping to hear a voice call from behind, all ready to turn around and run back.

Its so painful that I sat FOUR hours (5pm-9pm) on my favourite chair, doing nothing, - N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

What a waste of time. I should've just gone onto the bed and fall aslp. More productive that way. -.-

Movie Review II

Yes yes.. I know, i'm very slow... I only watch outdated movies, whatever.

Departures is the kind of movies i like. Its so sad, yet so uplifting. So encouraging.

But after and throughout the whole show, I still cannot come to terms with a husband that works as an encoffineer. (not sure if i have come to terms with the possibility of husband either) She's so to the point when she says "Don't touch me! You're unclean!". Even after watching the process again and again (yah, they use sterilized cloth etc) I still find it too eerie to slp (not to mention get pregnant - which she did!) with someone who touches dead bodies all e time. Don't get me wrong, I really can feel how he takes pride in the career, but STILL....

Anw, thanks sm! (and for the very toucing e-card too... I feel exactly like THAT)

Tribute to AirShow 2010

The AirShow was fuN! Haha..

Following the bosses around was fun cos the suppliers will tell you all they've got, they give their best at the presentation simply to impress the boss! And it was fun watching how one of the managers 'tao jia huan jia' with the suppliers, haha, just like bargaining at 'Nu Ren Jie' in HK!

And my oh my, I've never seen the mezzanine level of CEC, it has full-length glass-windows just like Seattle airport for the perfect view of the air display. The Apache bowed right in front of our table! (Yea, not to mention the many varieties at the ST hosted buffet lunch, makes it all perfect!!!)

The Air Display was exciting to me! Haha.. i love to watch planes fly. ALthough I've heard many describe that this year's is not as good as last, I still find it interesting! Just love to watch planes fly! (and so yl actually asked me to go sprt air platform -.-) There was the A10, creeping up quietly and showing of how flexible it is; The AH-64D flying beside our F16 - i wonder how they communicate? And some other US/Europe fighters so proud of their ability in speed and twists and turns.

Trade Days are so much better than public. Haha, hope this review is good enough for those who dun get to go! (I heard they reduced tickets given out this year for benefit of the crowd)

I feel exactly like it...

except that there's no one to wrap a tissue and fingers around me to soothe the bleeding...

Movie Review I

The amazing thing is, it took me till now to realise i can rent dvd home from the LIBRARY. So I did. The night of Puccini's La Boheme's opening, I borrowed:

1) Elizabethtown
2) Tuesdays with Morrie

from Library@Esplanade!

And to my horror (not really horror, but its quite horrifying although i wasnt' horrified) both movies were about dying/death/funeral. Gosh, and that reminds me i have ANOTHER funeral movie sitting around.

Frankly, both were about deaths, but the moral of both stories were the same. That's to celebrate life. I'm so uplifted by it, that I just want to live to the fullest! and be prepared to die anytime. as in, will not regret even if i have to die now.

Yes, u'd have guessed i watched both today. How perfect a way to spend a Saturday. :P

Ship Sightings..

Ya just like titantic, I stood there and enjoyed the sea breeze, happily snapping away..
Here's two from my many scenic shots...

Carribean Desserts

This is just two desserts from one selection of our many lovely dinners...

Royal Carribean

And of course.. not forgetting the folded towels of the Royal Carribean, courtesy of our chamber maids and masters...

The pearl, as promised

Haha, can't believe it took me so many months to do something that only requires 5 mins!

Here, as promised, THE PEARL. :P

Things get better

Thank you my dear friends for your concern!

Don't worry, I'm not saying its the end of the world, I'm just using my thoughts to describe the very complicated mess of things at work the previous week. Last week was good, having rested throughout e weekend and thought through so much, I've decided its better to have things to do than none at all! :D

Anw, things are working out at work, on its way to stabilizing. I predict a very fun week ahead (with THREE days of hotel food.... FOOOOODDDD!!!!!!!) :D

Terrible Week

I won't tell you how it went, just the thoughts that it induced will be sufficient:

1) can i just marry someone and live as a poor housewife forever?
2) can i be a starbucks pao kopi de after these four years?
3) i'm sure he will never marry me, so, i have to stay strong as no one will give the much needed hug.
4) can i hide in this cosy room for the rest of my life doing nothing at all?
5) can i survive a simple life yet have enough to tide thru storms and rainy days?
6) will being a housewife keep me away from all politics?
7) i really need HIM...
8) i just want to be at the beach, kneel there and scream my lungs out..
9) and cry my heart out.. with somebody who understands, somebody who cares...

Its the SECOND day of 2010...

Can I still make my new year resolutions? :$

Hehe... okay... i dun care.. here goes...:

I'm swearing off clubbing and alcohol (except at home) for the rest of 2010! WooHoo!!!