Thoughts are killing me..

Its not like i have nothing to do.. I just cannot concentrate...

And.. it didn't occur to me there was something wrong..
until i was questioned.. omg..

is there REALLY something wrong?! :O

Lantern @ The Fullerton Bay Hotel

Well well, u know i love e sea.. and mummy and i love quiet places.. n, mummy kind of got into Fullerton area craze a few mths back.. so somehow I found out abt this place and wanted to check it out.. we wanted to try it especially after our stint @ The Fullerton itself, this one, faces the MBS, so much better, in fact, Lantern has the best view, but I'm sure the other two dining @ Fullerton Bay Hotel have great views too..

Its quite silly if u noticed the 'Reserved' sign on the table. All the tables have this sign. We wanted this table, but the waiter showed us to another. The place is like FULLY empty. lol.. but he said THIS is THE reserved table. I gently probed what time the reservation is for, and he gave up, giving us the 'Reserved' table we chose.

Its a place with really relaxing music, and wonderful view. Puts u at ease the moment u sink into the chair. Ordered e orange juice. Tasted good. But there was a fruit fly in it. They replaced it for me, with another fruit fly. lol. So I gave up, returned them the orange juice and was not charged.

Asked the waiter for recommendations on bites. The waiter isn't v great. Its a fair skinned guy. I preferred the darked skinned waiter, more smiles, more cheerful. Makes one's experience more amiable too. The not so friendly waiter took our orders. He mentioned two recommendations on e menu for bites, some beef and another duck spring roll as below. Its niche, but okay. Taste good, but cannot taste the duck. There's quite abit of spices in the spring roll and the taste of seaweed over powers that of the duck. There isn't much food on the menu by the way.

Its actually a drinking place. Lantern's menu has loads of drinks. Put a mental note to ask Leng there an a wed night. They have some promotion i think. We also ordered this satay. the preferred choice, yummy and cheaper than spring rolls. satay - $18, spring rolls - $25.

Spotted this boat travelling around the Bay though. I wonder, its an Audi? Who sits on it? Will prefer to sail on more choppy waters, really. haha...

The rise of the

Planet of the Apes..

This title ah.. is so super loooong and tough on the tongue.. Can't believe the PC12 PgM just blurted it out so smoothly..

Ya, was on course and my lecturer mentioned the movie I watched.. Didn't quite catch what the link was cos I was already switched off, I think most students are switched off de.. our projects bug us so much its tough to concentrate in ISEM.

side track, i'm checking mail and saw the wego deals I almost want to get again, but was reminded that this is not a contract as I only made an offer, the wego party can withdraw as long as I have yet to claim my deal. quite stupid, but online txn shi zhe yang de.. taught that in Procurement Law lecture today..

Okay.. i meant to tell u abt the movie... that the actor acted very well, esp when caesar spoke, he had both the shock and understanding look.. so super good.. but i'm very distracted.. by huan zhu ge ge...

so ciaoz! haha.. go watch e movie if u're free!

Some insights..

Leng introed the New Huan Zhu Ge Ge to me yday.. watched three episodes.. really quite nice..

(I didn't continue tonight.. cos tired, not feeling well, plus want to do some work, and chat with some friends...)

despite me knowing the story by heart the new film still managed to capture my attn throughout the three episodes with no period of bore.. its really quite a success. They added in decent spices to the story, and cut short lengthy po-po ma-ma portions. So, judging just based on the first three episodes, its GOOD. :) RECOMMENDED.

Thing is, I asked leng this morning, cos watching it this second time, the feeling is so different. That was what, 6 years ago? I asked her, who did she identify with most?

Cos the most interesting realisation i had yday, was my change in character identification! Like I was a totally different girl 6 years back! I'm rather shocked at this revelation. I know I know.. I think toooo much. But cant help it!

I was reminded of something this taiwanese lady staff said when I was working with JM partners (An hui's cousin's office rmbr?). She was telling me how I shouldn't be fixated on marrying my then boyfriend (that was when I was 19) as females CHANGE. She told me that I will change! She even said females will keep growing/changing till 23, some even 26! I was quite stubborn that I wouldn't, quite certain of my r/s then! Haha.. what a joke right.. bu ting lao ren yan..

SM Lee: Hurry back gal! :)

A little repetitive

but I have to keep reminding myself the purpose of revival. Good posts only. Positive ones.

So, I've been quiet for too long. I have to write sometime positive, anything.

K, mei mei's coming back. I'm sooo looking forward to it. No expectations. She's getting iPhone, may become addicted like she said she previously was. But its ok. I'm just glad for her sole presence here. I guess. For emergencies I wish that will never happen. (been having nightmares on it..)

Recently, a lizard fell on my bare shoulder (when I was entering the bathroom). It was behind my shoulder, felt like a beetle. Hard and a little scratchy. After I flicked it off and realised what it was, - absolutely disgusted. FIRST TIME a lizard got THIS close...

Have I ever told u I hate lizards? Hmm.. think only ly knows.. that time I freaked out in hostel thanks to a little lizard too! sigh... its probably one of the rare non-flying creature that I dislike.

Condolences

A recent spate of events left me in quite a thoughtful frenzy. A first for me, visiting the funeral of someone whom I've had lunch with, went bowling with, spent precious tea breaks with, working tgt.

I've been to funerals. Always for friends, for families. Never for the deceased, really. I've seen all made up deceased in the wooden box, greying hair and all. But the closest i got was a grand uncle, whom I've never connected with. The rest, i've probably never really seen in life.

Visiting a friend, the one in the coffin, is a totally different experience all together. I thought I'd have gone crazy since this funeral followed a recent painful spate of events. But thank god, there was the guys by my side, and me by theirs. We gave each other support, tide one another thru. They helped calm me down and bring rationale to my thoughts. Can't be more thankful, for their very existence.

It was such a sudden news, his facebook friend invite still hanging in my inbox - haven't had time to respond, and he's already gone. The news, came via email. What better way? I wonder. How would I have responded if Vince told me at the face? But still, I called him in response, screamed at him, quite bewildered. Of course, the person sitting opposite me thought i went crazy as I've nvr, NEVER, spouted such nouns in the 2.5yrs he knew me. He thought it was work, I didn't know how to tell anyone, anyone at all, that my friend died.

Of course, fortunately, the recent spate of events taught me, live goes on! I wonder, maybe i shouldn't have reacted at all, since life goes on. I shouldn't complain that I felt worthless, as life goes on. Maybe it didn't make things any better. maybe by stopping my life when I was so emotional, I made things worse.

I wonder, if I hadn't told anyone how I felt, things will turn out better? jUst continue with life, and accept that sometimes pple just cannot make time for you. sometimes, pple just prioritise other things instead of you. sometimes, pple just won't try to accomodate you. and most times, pple won't remember that you're struggling with work. pple won't remember that you need them to help make life worth living!

if they do, then good for you. if not, life goes on!