Is it so obvious?
That Ms Lin cannot contain herself.
She asked, how's things w him?
Out of nowhere during dept lunch.
Is it so obvious?
That she jumps at my sigh, wanting details.
I've contained it so well, or so I thought.
Is it so obvious?
That Mr Lim opened his consultation services.
Even though I was trying to deviate from topic.
Is it my eyes that gave myself away?
That Mr Lim cared so much to spend an entire morning chiding me.
Thank god for them. And thank god for Leng too.
Is it so obvious?
That even as I try to sound cheerful and agitated,
Leng couldn't discount the fact that i'm so unhappy.
Leng trying to cheer me up with lame jokes,
I think that's rather rare isn't it leng?
Leng correcting my memory,
Reminding me of the past I mis-recall.
Leng being so mummyish,
Listening to every single little woe.
I couldn't thank them more.
For showing care and concern.
I know i'm a strong girl,
And thank you for reminding me, Mr Lim,
That I'm not THAT strong.
Thank you for acknowledging that.
I guess somehow it does help.
To know that I can be weak at times.
That I'm allowed to be so.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
In Pain/Hurt/Bullied
I'm exploring a new coping mechanism today:
1. Cry your heart out.
2. Erase all painful, hurtful and bully memories.
3. Move on.
Let u know if this works.
1. Cry your heart out.
2. Erase all painful, hurtful and bully memories.
3. Move on.
Let u know if this works.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
1 to 1 lesson
Today.. i was a little worried on my way to lesson as it started drizzling. Fortunately it was shorrt-lived. And even more lucky, I had a 1 to 1 lesson as the other students were mostly international and this is their 1 wk brk, most families goes ovs!
Well, even b4 lesson, i was walking arnd (cos raining) the sheds and playing w e horses. I asked Keith (instructor) how to differentiate males and females. Then got a long lesson on how stallions are not used for riders as they're hyperactive!
Gosh, they actually castrate horses for us to ride safely! :'( [suddenly reminded of castrato singers] And so in the ranch, there's just geldings and mares... But mostly geldings. After a work out, can see the thing sticking out... Oppz.. abit NC(16) here...
anyway, since I was alone today, I'm working my trot. I'm really bad at the rhythm thingy, really cos I have no energy to keep rising for 30mins non-stop. And my heels are wrong, i keep slipping off the stirrups. Hands also wrong, thumbs must point towards the sky. Keith says I hold the reins like i'm playing piano. (yea, i think so too man)
So many things, I must rmbr to get them right next lesson.
Well, even b4 lesson, i was walking arnd (cos raining) the sheds and playing w e horses. I asked Keith (instructor) how to differentiate males and females. Then got a long lesson on how stallions are not used for riders as they're hyperactive!
Gosh, they actually castrate horses for us to ride safely! :'( [suddenly reminded of castrato singers] And so in the ranch, there's just geldings and mares... But mostly geldings. After a work out, can see the thing sticking out... Oppz.. abit NC(16) here...
anyway, since I was alone today, I'm working my trot. I'm really bad at the rhythm thingy, really cos I have no energy to keep rising for 30mins non-stop. And my heels are wrong, i keep slipping off the stirrups. Hands also wrong, thumbs must point towards the sky. Keith says I hold the reins like i'm playing piano. (yea, i think so too man)
So many things, I must rmbr to get them right next lesson.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Bald...
omg... the first reaction in my memory was "WHY DID I DO IT!??!?!"
I have forgotten the reason, lost the cause.
I'm abhorred at reflections, never more.
Torn inside me, to face it or not.
Afraid of crowd, fearing their thoughts.
but thankful for great friends, holding me on.
They praise my courage, nurses my torn.
Hope to get over, thru and thru.
Never will I dare, this balding brew.
I have forgotten the reason, lost the cause.
I'm abhorred at reflections, never more.
Torn inside me, to face it or not.
Afraid of crowd, fearing their thoughts.
but thankful for great friends, holding me on.
They praise my courage, nurses my torn.
Hope to get over, thru and thru.
Never will I dare, this balding brew.
Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother (BHTM) [1]
I'm only halfway thru.. but I have so much I want to share with you..
in the first few chapters she went into such detail i thought only you, violinists could emphatise. "violin hickey" she mentions.. and immediately i thought of you, of grace. i felt so in touch with the violin really... and that only us, strings, can understand her..
She goes on to elaborate at how she works at it.. oh man.. so close to the heart.. and i bought the book really cos of the controversy it churned up in the papers and reviews...
the descriptions she put into how she tigered her girls to practice put me into work as well.. haha.. drilling the scales which i just tried... oh man.. if not for this bk, i think i'd nvr want to touch scales EVER man.. haha.. but if i dun touch it, my LH won't grow.. so yeah.. i'm so glad for the book.. though i'm only halfway thru..
i actually dun feel she's such terrible tiger though the facts put into the book may seem otherwise to readers.. she loves her kids and the nice things she did for them and nice words she put to them were actually all partially hidden..
*fully recommended!!!!*
in the first few chapters she went into such detail i thought only you, violinists could emphatise. "violin hickey" she mentions.. and immediately i thought of you, of grace. i felt so in touch with the violin really... and that only us, strings, can understand her..
She goes on to elaborate at how she works at it.. oh man.. so close to the heart.. and i bought the book really cos of the controversy it churned up in the papers and reviews...
the descriptions she put into how she tigered her girls to practice put me into work as well.. haha.. drilling the scales which i just tried... oh man.. if not for this bk, i think i'd nvr want to touch scales EVER man.. haha.. but if i dun touch it, my LH won't grow.. so yeah.. i'm so glad for the book.. though i'm only halfway thru..
i actually dun feel she's such terrible tiger though the facts put into the book may seem otherwise to readers.. she loves her kids and the nice things she did for them and nice words she put to them were actually all partially hidden..
*fully recommended!!!!*
Monday, July 4, 2011
Voyage De La Vie
After getting today's episode off my chest, lemme attempt to give an impartial review of the Voyage De La Vie I recently watched at the Festive Grand.
Voyage De La Vie is the resident show at RWS. Its a combination of circus, a little dance and singing by Jonathan Leong.
Felt that the show didn't really brought forth the story line that the website described. Supposed to be the story of a boy's adventures and growth. But I totally didn't feel that point.
The choreography was great though. I especially liked the acrobats on the loop. Could really feel the portrayal of love. The rest are more of show offs, esp the swing hanging above our heads. Felt that the lady balancing on two sticks on her arms wasn't quite enjoyable. I didn't like her look la. haha.. felt such an auntie to me oppz...
The finale show really brought out the choreagraphy. Darling and I were both very impressed with the way they changed their sets, really was thought and world-class. Its quite an interesting show through and through. Very rojak and singaporean as they put in both music, dance, pyrotechnics and acrobatics into one performance.
Nice la, but maybe not worth 100+++SGD.
I mentioned that i had to give an impartial review as firstly, it was such an enjoyable experience as there was my darling to share it with and our dearest Kenneth got us such great seats i'm so appreciative for!
Voyage De La Vie is the resident show at RWS. Its a combination of circus, a little dance and singing by Jonathan Leong.
Felt that the show didn't really brought forth the story line that the website described. Supposed to be the story of a boy's adventures and growth. But I totally didn't feel that point.
The choreography was great though. I especially liked the acrobats on the loop. Could really feel the portrayal of love. The rest are more of show offs, esp the swing hanging above our heads. Felt that the lady balancing on two sticks on her arms wasn't quite enjoyable. I didn't like her look la. haha.. felt such an auntie to me oppz...
The finale show really brought out the choreagraphy. Darling and I were both very impressed with the way they changed their sets, really was thought and world-class. Its quite an interesting show through and through. Very rojak and singaporean as they put in both music, dance, pyrotechnics and acrobatics into one performance.
Nice la, but maybe not worth 100+++SGD.
I mentioned that i had to give an impartial review as firstly, it was such an enjoyable experience as there was my darling to share it with and our dearest Kenneth got us such great seats i'm so appreciative for!
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Exciting Lesson..
Today's lesson was a little familiar yet not so familiar.
Was so glad to see Keith, my previous trainer. He was tasked to guide a combined group lesson today as Sandra, last week's trainer wasn't around. It was quite a mixed group, with me being the least experienced.
I like his style. Definitely more friendly, but he doesn't scream around like Sandra. And he will gather us after a trot to give us good guidance.
However, despite the familiarity, i was assigned a different horse today. If u have read the previous posts, u'd know that I'm already so accustomed to We Are On that a new horse actually is so rare an experience for me. JD was assigned to me and its really a relatively cooler name. Fortunately, Keith guided me to JD as I expressed my unfamilarity with JD.
And I'm so glad I expressed my unfamilarity to Keith as JD wasn't such a simple horse as We Are On. JD's blind on the left eye and Keith says he's sensitive to being pulled. Keith followed to comfort me that JD's a really good ride despite all that as JD has such a soft canter. (I haven't even gotten used to trotting lorz... -.-)
So I was really cautious. Kept my reins in control yet making sure I didn't tug without realising or for no good reason. JD was a really lovely ride as it is so easy to walk and trot him. Comparatively, We Are On puts on so much resistance despite my kicks.
P.S. I was given the whip today but didn't really need it...
So no tiring kicks today. But side story, the weather was so hot one of the students felt faint and dropped out of class halfway.
That aside, I come to the climax of the lesson today. I already wasn't quite used to JD's trot as his rhythm is obviously quite a far stretch from We Are On, and our trotting today was much much much longer. I had problem keeping up with BOTH the speed and the duration. We didn't have much rests. Just kept trotting on and it was so tiring and hence i was sometimes bumping all over, unable to keep up and almost falling le.
But that falling wasn't an issue as JD's so sensitive he will slow down when he feels i cannot keep up. We learnt the serpent ride today and was trotting around and over some obstacles. Quite smooth for a first time. Unfortunately, the Serpent ride required us to go in an S shape and I was happily trotting when suddenly JD went out of line and a little berserk. I tot he was being naughty and tried to pull him back on track den he freaked out and almost threw me off the horse!
What happened was so fast I couldn't really remember what I did. I remember screaming and screaming (which was so wrong cos I have to coo in a low voice to calm JD down). But I was a little caught off guard and I dun remember if i was scared or what. I think I was, haha, for that moment, but I was more focused I guess. Trying to figure out what made JD freak out and absolutely standing on two legs running about berserk!
Very fortunately, I heard Keith went 'sit', but hello, the saddle is like veritcal, how to sit sia? Nevertheless, I obeyed and tried to sit la, quite impossibly weighed myself down and somehow I managed to rein him in and prevented a fall.
I think Keith was really relieved. He said he's keeping his 2 month no falls in lesson record and counted. and so we trotted on.
After lesson, saw a lady with one side of her sleeves and trousers covered in brown yellowish sand. and her friend went to tell someone at e clubhouse she just fell. OMG. Looks like falling from horse is really common!
I guess I'd just have to learn how to maintain balance. Oh, I forgot to tell you what made JD berserk. Keith later explained to me that it was all the sand that the trotting gathered that's disturbing his eyes and made him nervous. And I went *raise eyebrows* and *nod in realisation*. Now, not just dogs, I have to protect my horse from flying sand. Horses are like how sensitive lorz. -.-
P.S. Just bathed and found some bruises, believe to be from this episode... oppz.. not really escaped unscratched it seems...
Was so glad to see Keith, my previous trainer. He was tasked to guide a combined group lesson today as Sandra, last week's trainer wasn't around. It was quite a mixed group, with me being the least experienced.
I like his style. Definitely more friendly, but he doesn't scream around like Sandra. And he will gather us after a trot to give us good guidance.
However, despite the familiarity, i was assigned a different horse today. If u have read the previous posts, u'd know that I'm already so accustomed to We Are On that a new horse actually is so rare an experience for me. JD was assigned to me and its really a relatively cooler name. Fortunately, Keith guided me to JD as I expressed my unfamilarity with JD.
And I'm so glad I expressed my unfamilarity to Keith as JD wasn't such a simple horse as We Are On. JD's blind on the left eye and Keith says he's sensitive to being pulled. Keith followed to comfort me that JD's a really good ride despite all that as JD has such a soft canter. (I haven't even gotten used to trotting lorz... -.-)
So I was really cautious. Kept my reins in control yet making sure I didn't tug without realising or for no good reason. JD was a really lovely ride as it is so easy to walk and trot him. Comparatively, We Are On puts on so much resistance despite my kicks.
P.S. I was given the whip today but didn't really need it...
So no tiring kicks today. But side story, the weather was so hot one of the students felt faint and dropped out of class halfway.
That aside, I come to the climax of the lesson today. I already wasn't quite used to JD's trot as his rhythm is obviously quite a far stretch from We Are On, and our trotting today was much much much longer. I had problem keeping up with BOTH the speed and the duration. We didn't have much rests. Just kept trotting on and it was so tiring and hence i was sometimes bumping all over, unable to keep up and almost falling le.
But that falling wasn't an issue as JD's so sensitive he will slow down when he feels i cannot keep up. We learnt the serpent ride today and was trotting around and over some obstacles. Quite smooth for a first time. Unfortunately, the Serpent ride required us to go in an S shape and I was happily trotting when suddenly JD went out of line and a little berserk. I tot he was being naughty and tried to pull him back on track den he freaked out and almost threw me off the horse!
What happened was so fast I couldn't really remember what I did. I remember screaming and screaming (which was so wrong cos I have to coo in a low voice to calm JD down). But I was a little caught off guard and I dun remember if i was scared or what. I think I was, haha, for that moment, but I was more focused I guess. Trying to figure out what made JD freak out and absolutely standing on two legs running about berserk!
Very fortunately, I heard Keith went 'sit', but hello, the saddle is like veritcal, how to sit sia? Nevertheless, I obeyed and tried to sit la, quite impossibly weighed myself down and somehow I managed to rein him in and prevented a fall.
I think Keith was really relieved. He said he's keeping his 2 month no falls in lesson record and counted. and so we trotted on.
After lesson, saw a lady with one side of her sleeves and trousers covered in brown yellowish sand. and her friend went to tell someone at e clubhouse she just fell. OMG. Looks like falling from horse is really common!
I guess I'd just have to learn how to maintain balance. Oh, I forgot to tell you what made JD berserk. Keith later explained to me that it was all the sand that the trotting gathered that's disturbing his eyes and made him nervous. And I went *raise eyebrows* and *nod in realisation*. Now, not just dogs, I have to protect my horse from flying sand. Horses are like how sensitive lorz. -.-
P.S. Just bathed and found some bruises, believe to be from this episode... oppz.. not really escaped unscratched it seems...
Culina
Randomly picked Culina @ Dempsey on Friday... was walking arnd thinking what to eat, but actually, I already knew I wanted to try that shop when we drove past.. :P
Then, finds out today about its exquisite foods and wines, 'leading purveyor of gourmet foods and wines', and so the websites says... haha.. amazed at my random choices..
No pictures thanks to no camera phone policy... but i try to describe la..
Oysters had a variety, like 6 different types to choose from. Tell the truth, i TOTALLY dunno how to choose, the oysters were all salty naturally though.. not like the ones in boston, i rmbr one or two not tasty de..
Escargots was quite to liking, not very French leiz.. i felt its more like HEALTHY French.. (when was French EVER healthy sia..) juicy good escargots..
The main courses were just perfect. The juiciness cant even compare with its presentation. Its very weird they stacked my trout on to of the brocolli and carrots, liddat how to cut!?!?! I lurve the chef.. haha.. he keeps all the original tastes of his main and brings out the tenderness and fragrance of the meat so skilfully..
*PRAISE*
Then, finds out today about its exquisite foods and wines, 'leading purveyor of gourmet foods and wines', and so the websites says... haha.. amazed at my random choices..
No pictures thanks to no camera phone policy... but i try to describe la..
Oysters had a variety, like 6 different types to choose from. Tell the truth, i TOTALLY dunno how to choose, the oysters were all salty naturally though.. not like the ones in boston, i rmbr one or two not tasty de..
Escargots was quite to liking, not very French leiz.. i felt its more like HEALTHY French.. (when was French EVER healthy sia..) juicy good escargots..
The main courses were just perfect. The juiciness cant even compare with its presentation. Its very weird they stacked my trout on to of the brocolli and carrots, liddat how to cut!?!?! I lurve the chef.. haha.. he keeps all the original tastes of his main and brings out the tenderness and fragrance of the meat so skilfully..
*PRAISE*
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