Increasing Fertility..

And so they think that somehow it will help...

I guess, the idea is there, there is a need for a general mindset change.. but I guess it also goes rather unfair that the government has to take up the challenge in righting the mindset, yet, the government is affect by low fertility which unfortunately is caused by this global shift in mindset and hence becomes gahmen problem.. i also cannot fathom why..

paternity leave obviouly only tries to shift alongside the society's struggle to try to put men and women on the same fighting line. Of course I cannot ignore some women who wants to compete with men. I also cannot put down the women who actually do better than men. But no idea why, but somehow i think after doing better and achieving ahead of men, i guess, i feel, even kwa geok choo learnt her place at home. some others just took longer to realise.

work life balance is like the largest topic of the city. CE wants work life integration, i think he has to change now lol. work life balance and work life integration IMO is just two opposite end of the x and z axis. not even in the same dimension lor. but how to balance? I tot he'd say one day off work. 32 work hours per week. but to penalise pple for staying past 6pm? Pple will just go home and do work. No need go home, use the mobile also can do work. My user smses me at 7pm on Sunday.

i think cannot la. Just look at myself now. Already struggling to meet my boyfriend, spend time with mum. Left so little time to meet my best friends, my best colleagues, not to mention random friends who sometimes are so important. What about learning sewing? learning horse riding? and going on vacations? Really lei. 44 hours work week still not enough LIFE time. by the time reach home, already shag till want to plonk straight into bed. Don't say make babies, don't even have time to build family bonds any more. and most employers actually end up needing their staff to work 88hour weeks...

this is difficult. cos its a fundamental shift. lifestyle change. we can work less hours, but means employer need to employ more pple. So they either profit less or we earn less, or BOTH. But how can we earn less? When those women on the streets die for DKNY, Coach and i also cannot imagine what else. pple cannot align with the precious gift of family, of home cooked dinners and the simple pleasure of a cloth bag. like want to go back kampung le.

i guess personally, i don't have a problem enjoying and living my fullest and towards my beliefs. But I can sense and see the general public who are not happy, not contented and not prepared for life. sigh for my gahmen.

sex-for-contracts

Its not usual for me to be so erz.. politcally commentarical.. but this is my job scope for now... it has been so for past 4 years.. -contracting- so I have to comment on this, as it really upsets me... the misuse of sex. 

i mean, at work we understand that wasting extra effort to bring in tenderers to quote is meaningless, tenderers whom we know cannot fulfil the minimal technical requirements although transperancy requires us to give them chance. 

but sex, since young, we've been taught to respect. Since young, teachers in schools made us aware of sexually transmitted diseases. They were promoting the abstinence from sex to the females and the use of condoms to the males. Very contradictory but assuming you read freakonomics, you'd understand. 

following that, the Da Vinci Code promoted sex as a holy process, a holy ritual, a holy exchange between two clean individuals. 

yet on the other side of the scale, i know my poly mates who picks guys up at clubs, have sex in the car at mount faber, in toilets, lifts, i know my XXXX user who does it at some random cubicle with his ex, the XXX user who visited geylang. A whole bunch of folks who maybe enjoys it, yearns for it, habitually does it. SIGH. 

but its against my comprehension, how a married woman, (whom i hope was in love with her husband), can stoop to that. or rather, married women. SIGH. DOUBLE SIGH.

and on another spectrum, those married couples who should be giving birth are maybe some not having enough sex or abstaining from it due to societal issues. What a world!

Cash Convertor

As mentioned in my previous post, I had gone to do my chores.. one of which required a visit to Cash Convertor.. its amazing and eye-opening and refreshing for me to see the stuff the old uncles go to convert into cash, old paintings, sets of rice bowls and other porcelain wares, a workout machine. -wow-

Besides that, I realised how much the Bedok interchange i used to visit every single day of my polytechnic life has transformed. Now constructing bedok residences right smack in the interchange. I wonder who will want to live there? As everyone seeks peace and tranquility in this over bustling city, who will want to live in the middle of it all?

Nonetheless, some new coffeeshops have spruced up and there's this ice cafe at bedok library i'd have loved to try if not for my rich collection of amos cookies and fruits already. And the cash ktv that su wei mentioned, i mean, why is everything named starting with cash!? lol..

Feeling empty..

As the weekend is ending, as I've spent my entire day at my laptop catching up on news, the feeling of insecurity creeps in. I'm reminded of my week, of my bashful utterances and deep reminder of my own boundaries and new boundaries i must learn to follow at work.

Of course, not forgetting that my dearest postivity has left Singapore for Perth, I sincerely hope that he's having the time of his life. While the strongest positive energetic influence of my life is not around me, the peace getting into me isn't very positive. I appreciate that peace, and I want to be thankful for it, as I miss my dearest positivity. Also, hope to find my own positivity, can't keep relying on him can i?

In spite of all, I went out to do some chores, and return much uplifted. Seeing how the dressage competitors fight it out on mio tv at singtel shop, re-ignites my urge to get back onto the horseback. Maybe Yogyakarta will have riding schools, maybe after my trip to yogakarta, i have to make another one to do some riding myself. maybe, just maybe.

And after all that, I reminded my dear friend on whatsapp, that at different stages of our lives, we prioritise our dreams and stability differently. Now is the time to save up your money and make more to save up. There will be a time for dreams, I'm sure.

Looking ahead..

I'm trying to get my resume done.. It's taking forever!!! I really want to hand it over to Philifer soon... In any case, I've decided i'm gng to try IDA next year first... more like taking a small step towards the commercial world.. hopefully can move on to google or andriod in future.. I've also thought through my need to find an ethical company, an ethical career. Not something like fashion where pple backstab one another or like one Rochester where the presentation and marketing is more important to stay competitive. Still hoping to find a resort representative kind of vocation. Still looking around.

Terrible week

And so.. its not really PRM's fault but we cannot deny how sucky our PRM is.. their process is lengthy, and slow.. and the ES system is troublesome, somehow my user also made mistake in the ES routing approval.. and we had to shift from a ePS to ES and a hardcopy PO system.. i feel i've practically raised THREE POs in THREE days! So its been quite a strain on me and not to mention i've been re-thinking stuff... from wanting to leave PC7 to got to PC11.. to now here.. I'm trying to find a way to survive and probably stay.. but as familiar as I am with the system.. there's always the problem of PRM, the ES system and even ST makes mistakes and I have to get them to correct it 5 times! That practically sums up my terrible week. (which ended with a 12 hour snoose till today 12.30pm)