Sunday, June 30, 2013

How to be alone... (second dosage)

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-5834/25-Ways-to-Be-Alone-But-Not-Lonely.html

With reference to the awesome link I found, I'm gng to work on item 17. tonight.

17. Write down a list of five qualities your soul mate must have, and work on those qualities in yourself.


1 - Take the initiative on living a good life
2 -  Reflect, review and keep growing
3 - Communicate, communicate. There's never enough of commnication.
4 - Love my family, care for them and be considerate to them
5 - Honesty, nothing better than an honest living

Friday, June 28, 2013

Human nature

It is human nature to want to scream out when they feel threatened. Threats comes in the form of stress, exasperation, impatience, fear and many other forms. In the face of threats, it is human instinct to share that feeling with fellow humans. We think that this sharing will help alleviate that threatened feeling.

But we all know, the best way to overcome this feeling (of being threatened) isn't external. It is internal. It is to calm down. To calm yourself down. To talk yourself into peace. And to reason yourself into understanding and tranquility.

It's difficult. But let's try to remember that.

PM201

This was meant to be posted on Monday.

I wanted to mark this milestone. It isn't an overnight thing. It isn't overnight that I turned PM201. But I was there for sometime, except that circumstances did not allow my coach to see it. But to his delight, and my relief, I did attain it. The very impossible Contractor brought it out of me. It isn't the get stressed over an impossible Contractor mentality that makes one PM201. Its the, how can I protect other PMs from such impossible Contractors that makes me PM201. PM or not, I have to focus on my studies now.

As for PM301, Coach has hinted, I will need a longer time and to take on the role of coaching other young uns to work towards it. Chill chill. Keep calm.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Child Pose...

Hugging knees tight,
Bent towards your chest.
Squeezing with might,
Does security come back?

Leaning into knees,
Head resting on kneecaps.
What will be will be,
How does one trust?

A taxing long week,
Tiring days.
Testing one's endurance,
And impossible patience.

Communication is key,
In all relationships.
Hard as I strive,
In perserverance I achieve.

Find your security,
Gain back the trust.
Communicate communicate,
Believe what you must.

Monday, June 10, 2013

A married look..

Just yesterday my classmate insisted to teacher that I must be attached. We never discussed my status ever, yet she so confidently told teacher that I'm attached and I won't have the time commitment to devote myself fully to dressmaking. ( I made no attempt to correct her, busying myself with my dressmaking)

And today, my colleague who recently moved down to sit opposite me, shared frankly with me that she thought I was married! Omg.. when did I give her that idea? She knew me since the day I organised welfare activities for the PC, I hope it wasn't from then! She added that I had this homely feel that's what made her think I was married. But MARRIED! Seriously, can you just check the finger next time???

And it got me curious on the married look. How can anyone tell a lady is married? Honestly, -impossible-. I met many colleagues, from another PC and they looked so young, so independent, so girly, but married. I repeatedly ask myself, curious about how they live their married lives. No need to attend to in-laws? Do laundry for the husband? Cook!? They still maintain the girly, all made up, sporty look. Awesome. And rare mention of their beloved.

Curious.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

A Beautiful Mind

Just watched the full movie...

Yes, its an old movie, but somehow coursera was trying to get me to understand the cultural situation where the Turing device was born and introduced it to me. I'm supposed to be doing my quizzes but end up spending two full hours on entertainment instead.. lol... if this happens in NUS I don't know if i will graduate...

Having heard so much about game theory in uni days, I didn't understand what it was really about, much less the John who came up with it. I guess this is the inspirational kind of movie for computing students?

Its so awesome isn't it? Coming up with a theory to analyse life situations, even better, come up with something that others can use to apply to other life situations. Like putting project management into a drawing that routes solutions for every problem that comes along the way. I wish I could come up with a theory to analyse project management like game theory! But even if I did, I wouldn't be able to put it down in graphs and equations like how mathematician John did.

Albeit a rather -dark- movie, and of course it does bring about some debate about what is life worthy of? A mental illness and a nobel prize? I guess I'd choose peace at home and warm at heart.

-correction- sorry, I forget, schizo is an inherited gene... debate goes on, but its not related to schizo and nobel prize..

Monday, June 3, 2013

96 C cafe

(Couldn't find the symbol for degree...)

I guess I wanted to share my feelings and thoughts about the drama before I finish the last 5 episodes..

The show has been great so far.. albeit the far from perfect acting skills.. the far from reality lives of the characters.. lives that absolutely does not reflect the true Singaporean, I felt its a great production after all..

The mood of every episode, the decor of the cafe itself, the music selected, all exhudes relaxation, peace and a kind of tranquility. The colours of the van, her clothes, his clothes, reflects artistry and serenity not common in hot and humid Singapore.

The general mood of each episode centres around a specific concoction of coffee, be it rose cafe, chilli cafe, au lait or simply cappuccino, there is a simple lesson to learn every episode - or so they try.

What I felt is a step up, an achievement which was something that draws me towards drama since young, was the dui bai, the script. Very cleverly weaved into normal conversations, sometimes the granny, ruolin, chuanzhi or whoever else will speak consolations to other characters that really sounds close to my heart.

Of course, besides life, it centres coffee around love relationships. The kinds of love, the faces of love and the different ways to decrypt love languages. Overall a sweet drama. Up until episode 15. :P