"Anniversary"

Today marks the first year anniversary of the murder of what used to be a huge portion of my heart. (Erz, so has my heart grown bigger? - haha, maybe so)

I think its enough. I have to stop mourning. Stop taking slow and fearful steps forward, every inch hoping to hear a voice call from behind, all ready to turn around and run back.

Its so painful that I sat FOUR hours (5pm-9pm) on my favourite chair, doing nothing, - N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

What a waste of time. I should've just gone onto the bed and fall aslp. More productive that way. -.-