I'm afraid to say I'm still too new at work to comment on working life. I still feel like a child. Being taught, discovering things day-to-day, being guided and shown the way and sheltered and taken care of.
Yes, I want to be exposed and to learn. I told myself umpteenth times that I will have to learn to take setbacks. And I know they are coming. Already I have left my tongue loose itself. Very minor mistakes for now but I gotta gambatte!
I'm not here to blog abt work. I mean to tell everyone abt yesterday. My night at the arts house. My first night there. It was quite amazing. Having been in NUS hole and then home hole and now work hole, I haven't been to such-like events for forever! But its great. It feels natural as I was with someone whom understands, sees and emphatises. How many girls can do that? Its difficult. I had a hard time finding someone who I can share such deep dark thoughts. Someone who wouldn't be polluted yet EMPHATISE.
It was the art's house's anniversary. We started with wine. (wine on empty stomach, totally mad to me) I chose white, her, red. Then visited the photo exhibition. They had photos that were see through. So you can see it either side. She sees such a change in me. I didn't even realise the change. The change since Waterloo. The change after I start work. She takes it all in. Yet I do not realise. My moods are so transperant to her. I only feel the same old me, we are still, aren't we? The same old us. The change is good. All for the better. Of course, only she can see the joy in me, cos only she has seen the darkness in within.
Anw, photo exhibition and wine was followed by a buffet dinner. I loved the salmon sashimi, she loved the deep fried triangular thingy (what's it CALLED!??!?! EDIT: Samosa). Haha.. And I made rojak for both of us. It was too salty I feel, she haven't had it for so very loooong..
That was followed by this film on Chek Jawa. A very touching film. I must go in the next few months. We must. Let's GO!
It was a very dramatic night (especially for her) cos I was such a drama mama. lol. Its good. After letting it all out, all that drama, I felt alot better. Was finally able to tone down. Like NOW.. i can, be mild.. relax and work.. :)
Friday, March 27, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
To e SE gals..
I dun think you would remember, cos I was the one who organised the bbq 9 yrs ago and the one who called each and every senior/alumni up to ask if they'd come.
So this colleague who's in my team, is actually this long lost senior of mine and so amazingly direct senior somemore! I think I was just meant to go there to give her the updates on SE, the pple etc... WOAH! Isn't life amazing? (Makes me recall 5 yrs ago, i had a whole bunch of pple from Nehru complaining that I go everywhere also know SOMEONE de...)
Yah, I actually approached her today after thinking thru for a day (my first day) if she can really be that senior from so long ago.. (I was trying to match her voice to that of 11 yrs ago actaully, and i couldn't match - due to lack of data lol..) its like after 10 yrs, although look familiar but you cannot be sure? Moreover, I didn't see her often 10 yr ago either! She mentioned that I looked familiar to her but she couldn't put my face to VJ.
So today we talked alot abt pple, pple she's lost contact with etc... yea and she's interested to watch us on May 16th! Haha.. I'd tell you more if you perform/attend :P
P.S. She says I still look e same. After 10 yrs lorz.. does that mean... I look like sec sch girl or I used to look like an adult during sec sch? LOL...
So this colleague who's in my team, is actually this long lost senior of mine and so amazingly direct senior somemore! I think I was just meant to go there to give her the updates on SE, the pple etc... WOAH! Isn't life amazing? (Makes me recall 5 yrs ago, i had a whole bunch of pple from Nehru complaining that I go everywhere also know SOMEONE de...)
Yah, I actually approached her today after thinking thru for a day (my first day) if she can really be that senior from so long ago.. (I was trying to match her voice to that of 11 yrs ago actaully, and i couldn't match - due to lack of data lol..) its like after 10 yrs, although look familiar but you cannot be sure? Moreover, I didn't see her often 10 yr ago either! She mentioned that I looked familiar to her but she couldn't put my face to VJ.
So today we talked alot abt pple, pple she's lost contact with etc... yea and she's interested to watch us on May 16th! Haha.. I'd tell you more if you perform/attend :P
P.S. She says I still look e same. After 10 yrs lorz.. does that mean... I look like sec sch girl or I used to look like an adult during sec sch? LOL...
First Day of Work
I think i must blog this. Cos I'm sure 10-20-50 years down the road, i'd be thinking back wondering how my first day went. (Also cos i received so many smses asking this same qn i might as well blog it)
I'd say I was very much jaded/dazed. Due to lack of slp and waking up in the wee hours(5.30am). Was early(7.50am), thus sat at the reception to wait for the Admin Staff to come(8.30am). (meanwhile I read a fiction bk - Sunday Philosophy Club) Saw pple enter the building, external vendors, a bunch of interns. Two other pple shared the first day of work with me. The admin staff brought us to get their pass (mine wasn't ready), and apply for laptop then showed us to our respective superiors(Mine first). My boss went something like 'has she seen her desk? (No-admin lady) I'd see her later then'. The admin lady heard 'has she seen her desk? (Yes-admin lady) Ok. I'd talk to her later'. Admin lady asked me to wait to later to look for my boss. So I was very confused. 1) No pass. 2) Nothing to do. 3) In a strange place.
Anw, the HR realised that I needed a temp pass anw, so sent me back BY MYSELF to collect a temp pass. Anw, to spare you of the agony of detailed reporting of my day, let me just summarise.
My boss brought me around to meet some colleagues. (My buddy was supposed to do so but she was on leave/MC therefore couldn't). He just went cubicle after cubicle introducing the pple's names. And i'd go shaking hands, wondering what they do, what's their rank, married or not etc. (It was comparatively less informative as I recalled during internship at Science Park I had an exciting introduction to the pple around). My boss assigned me a project, but the scope was generally internet research for the rest of the week, so since I 1) no laptop 2) no pass, I couldn't work on ANYTHING AT ALL. Feeling abit intruding (as I think i'm taking up too much of my boss' time), I told him I'd do my own stuff while waiting for laptop etc. (He did mention he'd try to find stuff for me to read, but to no avail. He IS VERY busy la). First day, I found the bosses abit intimidating, but Second day, it was easier, he's a very kind and helpful boss I gathered.
I am assigned a room to share with another lady. I actually like being in the room, despite having to share the same table. Its quite a big table anw. But first day the lady sharing the room with me was on MC. So I was really alone in the room. And of course a little lonely. I walked abt e room, looked out the huge piece of glass window down 23 storeys and across to CTE... Today I saw the Chinook fly past! Closely followed by another helicopter, is it the F50? First day I wasn't too happy abt the gather of rubbish around my assigned cabinet, but it got cleared today. So happy! Yea, I found the most comfortable spot on the table and set my laptop station very neatly le. Settled my stationeries too. My roommate showed me e stationery cupboard! And many other things (filing work hours, applying leave etc...)
On the first day, I felt very ermz.. shy? Like very different! Suddenly I'm entering this life that seems to belong to everyone around me! Adults! I dunno how I should behave. Lunch was ok. The adults were talking. Most of it I understood half. Only the rat incident and the Farm Trip did I understand more clearly. (And today I got updated that the rat incident occured last week) Yah, didn't talk to anyone really. Just intro and that's it. At most they asked abt my sch.
Weirdest was the meeting with the big boss. He didn't have much to tell me. He asked what I liked to do. Urgh! I think i'm getting sick of being asked THAT! lol... But he's nice la, keeps saying that I can always feedback and they can always try to let me do things that I like?! :O You've already done so. You gave me a job! Haha.. I told him I org. wanted to do programming in XXXX. But I'm open, ya know. Felt a little awkward, as it seems the bosses do not know my background. I like it that they do not know my bg so they won't treat me different. But I dun like it cos they cannot understand the crap the BOARD has given me the past 3 mths. Nvm. Its over. Yea, I generally felt uncomfortable with bosses, cos they're supposed to be scary creatures la. They're big and tall and old and men. But less today. Guess yday I was still grappling with the switch in environment. Today I'm better.
So the first day was alot of waiting (waited till 2.30pm to get my pass then my laptop, cos laptop is essentially unwired unless I have my pass). So after I got my laptop, things started moving a little, I realised there's ALOT to do. I started to understand abit more of what some of them talked to me about. btw, HR gave me more WORK to do than my boss. Just imagine that.
And when I went off at 6.05pm, I wondered if I should say bye to my boss(or even some of my colleagues). But didn't. Dunno, just felt strange. I duno what to do and there's no one to tell me.
P.S. My boss' first statement to me was a qn. "So what do you know abt the organisational structure?" (and i told him) he said "ya, that's actually pretty accurate". (well, what do you expect? It was drilled in since 1) 2005 (once) 2) Internship (a few times) 3) Employment Agreement (again)
I'd say I was very much jaded/dazed. Due to lack of slp and waking up in the wee hours(5.30am). Was early(7.50am), thus sat at the reception to wait for the Admin Staff to come(8.30am). (meanwhile I read a fiction bk - Sunday Philosophy Club) Saw pple enter the building, external vendors, a bunch of interns. Two other pple shared the first day of work with me. The admin staff brought us to get their pass (mine wasn't ready), and apply for laptop then showed us to our respective superiors(Mine first). My boss went something like 'has she seen her desk? (No-admin lady) I'd see her later then'. The admin lady heard 'has she seen her desk? (Yes-admin lady) Ok. I'd talk to her later'. Admin lady asked me to wait to later to look for my boss. So I was very confused. 1) No pass. 2) Nothing to do. 3) In a strange place.
Anw, the HR realised that I needed a temp pass anw, so sent me back BY MYSELF to collect a temp pass. Anw, to spare you of the agony of detailed reporting of my day, let me just summarise.
My boss brought me around to meet some colleagues. (My buddy was supposed to do so but she was on leave/MC therefore couldn't). He just went cubicle after cubicle introducing the pple's names. And i'd go shaking hands, wondering what they do, what's their rank, married or not etc. (It was comparatively less informative as I recalled during internship at Science Park I had an exciting introduction to the pple around). My boss assigned me a project, but the scope was generally internet research for the rest of the week, so since I 1) no laptop 2) no pass, I couldn't work on ANYTHING AT ALL. Feeling abit intruding (as I think i'm taking up too much of my boss' time), I told him I'd do my own stuff while waiting for laptop etc. (He did mention he'd try to find stuff for me to read, but to no avail. He IS VERY busy la). First day, I found the bosses abit intimidating, but Second day, it was easier, he's a very kind and helpful boss I gathered.
I am assigned a room to share with another lady. I actually like being in the room, despite having to share the same table. Its quite a big table anw. But first day the lady sharing the room with me was on MC. So I was really alone in the room. And of course a little lonely. I walked abt e room, looked out the huge piece of glass window down 23 storeys and across to CTE... Today I saw the Chinook fly past! Closely followed by another helicopter, is it the F50? First day I wasn't too happy abt the gather of rubbish around my assigned cabinet, but it got cleared today. So happy! Yea, I found the most comfortable spot on the table and set my laptop station very neatly le. Settled my stationeries too. My roommate showed me e stationery cupboard! And many other things (filing work hours, applying leave etc...)
On the first day, I felt very ermz.. shy? Like very different! Suddenly I'm entering this life that seems to belong to everyone around me! Adults! I dunno how I should behave. Lunch was ok. The adults were talking. Most of it I understood half. Only the rat incident and the Farm Trip did I understand more clearly. (And today I got updated that the rat incident occured last week) Yah, didn't talk to anyone really. Just intro and that's it. At most they asked abt my sch.
Weirdest was the meeting with the big boss. He didn't have much to tell me. He asked what I liked to do. Urgh! I think i'm getting sick of being asked THAT! lol... But he's nice la, keeps saying that I can always feedback and they can always try to let me do things that I like?! :O You've already done so. You gave me a job! Haha.. I told him I org. wanted to do programming in XXXX. But I'm open, ya know. Felt a little awkward, as it seems the bosses do not know my background. I like it that they do not know my bg so they won't treat me different. But I dun like it cos they cannot understand the crap the BOARD has given me the past 3 mths. Nvm. Its over. Yea, I generally felt uncomfortable with bosses, cos they're supposed to be scary creatures la. They're big and tall and old and men. But less today. Guess yday I was still grappling with the switch in environment. Today I'm better.
So the first day was alot of waiting (waited till 2.30pm to get my pass then my laptop, cos laptop is essentially unwired unless I have my pass). So after I got my laptop, things started moving a little, I realised there's ALOT to do. I started to understand abit more of what some of them talked to me about. btw, HR gave me more WORK to do than my boss. Just imagine that.
And when I went off at 6.05pm, I wondered if I should say bye to my boss(or even some of my colleagues). But didn't. Dunno, just felt strange. I duno what to do and there's no one to tell me.
P.S. My boss' first statement to me was a qn. "So what do you know abt the organisational structure?" (and i told him) he said "ya, that's actually pretty accurate". (well, what do you expect? It was drilled in since 1) 2005 (once) 2) Internship (a few times) 3) Employment Agreement (again)
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Inconsiderate SG pple
This old man was travelling on bus number 33 from Kent Ridge to Bedok on the 11pm bus. He's so inconsiderate, I got so pissed I decided to take this photo to show the WORLD how inconsiderate old men can be. He put his dirty shoes on the bus' HANDLE BAR!!! man, can you imagine? Now I'm gng to be afraid of touching that handle bar EVER!
Friday, March 13, 2009
Food For Thought
Totally love the art of the door. Quite attractive isn't it? Too bad the sandwich leng had wasn't totally yummy... Plus the prices of the rest of the food's quite ex too... well, at least we had our consolation in the red velvet cake.. :P
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Artistic Sight..
Think this was quite a sight... An after rain walk along Meridian and you get this. Dun you think its very artsy the umbrellas arranged this way? It was a lovely walk down... :) My first too! Rather surprised, maybe I never noticed in the past... too caught up in NUS humdrum... :(
Nice BAG!
Haha.. i'm so sneaky.. was getting bored waiting for bus.. then this girl kept hovering in front of me with this totally awesome classy bag!!!!
I dun need a bag.
I dun need a bag.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Nobody Understands...
Nobody, NOBODY at all, understands my plight.
They are even happy that I do not have a job. How evil. If i start working, they expect a treat. Now that I dun have a job, happier they are. Evil humans.
They think they're consoling me. They ask me to appreciate the free time I have. That I will never have such a free time. Yea. These pple born with a silver spoon in their mouth. Do not know the hardships of survival. Struggling to pay for the next meal. Worrying over the next few days. Desperately in need of an income.
Pple who sign bond for the free tuition overseas. Only wanting to tour they graduation year away. Will never understand someone like me. Who even before graduating, even before the last semester already desperately in need of the job. The income. I have a family to support. You have a family to support you. Of course you wouldn't understand.
They are even happy that I do not have a job. How evil. If i start working, they expect a treat. Now that I dun have a job, happier they are. Evil humans.
They think they're consoling me. They ask me to appreciate the free time I have. That I will never have such a free time. Yea. These pple born with a silver spoon in their mouth. Do not know the hardships of survival. Struggling to pay for the next meal. Worrying over the next few days. Desperately in need of an income.
Pple who sign bond for the free tuition overseas. Only wanting to tour they graduation year away. Will never understand someone like me. Who even before graduating, even before the last semester already desperately in need of the job. The income. I have a family to support. You have a family to support you. Of course you wouldn't understand.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
New DHS
As much as i hated my times there... I went back.
Gng back now, at this age, at the stage in life, feels totally detached. I dun feel anything for the building we used to study at. Dun feel anything for the new addition to the canteen nor the new block for the IP progarm either.
As usual, they're preparing for the SYF, this time at a new location. Pple suspect its due to the recession they're locating it at Republic Poly. A sucky hall with lots of edges that cannnot give a ROUND sound. Ok. I take that back. The hall is NOT THAT BAD.
Re-picking up the cello marmee Starcie lent to me.. it seems like skills lost and aim missing. Will alumni item be manageable? We're definitely not as competent as our juniors who've been so much in touch with their instruments. And even they are alumni already. Can you believe how VERY OLD we are?!
Ok la, maybe starting with Bach Suites is indeed a little too ambitious. I'm just lazy to dig out the other practice pieces. Most of which I would've played before? Either way, its hard to even last 1 hour of practice without my fingers turning red and black... And I WANT to play Bach suite! I hope this month is sufficient to get my fingers back to performance/competition condition.
Gng back now, at this age, at the stage in life, feels totally detached. I dun feel anything for the building we used to study at. Dun feel anything for the new addition to the canteen nor the new block for the IP progarm either.
As usual, they're preparing for the SYF, this time at a new location. Pple suspect its due to the recession they're locating it at Republic Poly. A sucky hall with lots of edges that cannnot give a ROUND sound. Ok. I take that back. The hall is NOT THAT BAD.
Re-picking up the cello marmee Starcie lent to me.. it seems like skills lost and aim missing. Will alumni item be manageable? We're definitely not as competent as our juniors who've been so much in touch with their instruments. And even they are alumni already. Can you believe how VERY OLD we are?!
Ok la, maybe starting with Bach Suites is indeed a little too ambitious. I'm just lazy to dig out the other practice pieces. Most of which I would've played before? Either way, its hard to even last 1 hour of practice without my fingers turning red and black... And I WANT to play Bach suite! I hope this month is sufficient to get my fingers back to performance/competition condition.
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