Friday, October 18, 2013

I cannot fall asleep

And I know why.. I'm just too angry. I was really angry with my project mate and gave her a watered down version of a dressing down. I mean, like a kid. It happens to me all the time I get angry and have no choice but to resolve it by scolding some ppl. I gave the boy project mate an even more watered down version than hers on Tues and it worked. I guess there can be other ways, but its just not my style.

Getting angry at ppl is harmful for me, yet this is the best I can control. Already a much improved version, I'm ok once I've scolded sense into them and we move on. But for the night that I do so, I cannot sleep.

So this is the me. The me that was hidden in the sheltered working environment. The me that Coach wanted myself to find. But what next? He says to focus on the ppl I can work with. Not ppl who has no sense of criticality, and expectations and requirements. A 30 year old and a 22 year old. Both manifest similar attitudes. Its the attitude that I cannot work with. They're great humans.

Jia you Yan Jun.

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